Door to the Mind

I wonder as I wander through the recess of my mind
Why I’m trapped here with my conscience in the place where I’m divine
I tread through long, dark hallways with rows of doors on either side
But my consciousness is waning, pushing everything else aside

I find myself now turning towards a small square door of light
And it opens now before me to a scene of horror and fright
I see things in this room here that I’ve never seen before
And I wonder in my inward self “Is this what I’m here for?”

Yet some things are familiar, I have seen them many times
Yet these too are defiled, broken, tainted like my mind.
I see my old, gone habits taunting me from down below
With how they never fulfilled me, even though I didn’t know

Even as I stand here, I feel my eyes begin to tear
Looking out into the darkness, to catch a glimpse of nameless fear
It is that fear I search for, I have hunted all my life
This thing that has now taunted me and caused me infinite strife

As I peer into the deep abyss, my conscience then does tell
That I must put an end to this, and I step out into hell
As I pass then through this darkness, my eyes discern a sight
And carry me now onward to the place where I must fight

But as I’m carried onwards I am treated once again
To images, emotions, that I thought were once my friend
I see now in my passing many shapes both far and near
And keep now moving forward, never giving into fear

My minds eye now deceives me for I know it can’t be true
But I see in a world of darkness, pain, and anger, color too
There are flashes in the darkness of those colors I can see
But they are now despairing, covered up now by the sea

The sea of dark is spreading, covering even now my thoughts
My memories and who I am are stolen, all for naught
Yet hope still springs eternal as I travel through the night
I may yet now reclaim them from the monster I must fight

I now do carry forward, to the creature’s awful lair
My mind now fully ready for what I know dwells up in there
And as I now draw closer, my dark fear rears up its head
And blazing eyes survey me as I stand there, filled with dread

Yet it sees something different, than the times it has before
It sees my soul, my will to fight, and it flees, to rule no more
I gaze now into darkness, after the beast that was my end
And wonder now and ponder, was it even then my friend

It saved me from my self then, as often as it could
For it helped to save and guide me from those things misunderstood
That fear had been my protector, my champion in a fight
And now I understand that, and see it in new light

Yet it has been defeated, and I travel on again
To doors that are unopened, to other places then
I wander through the hallways, and I wonder what I’ll find
And I open many new doors, these new Doors to my own Mind